Hey. Ok am I supposed to be waiting for true love? Seriously. A friend of mine told me that right now it's OK to just expect fun from a relationship. It doesn't have to be fireworks and loss of mental stability and all that hoopla. But it doesn't feel quite right without them. Aren't I supposed to be dizzy and head over heels? Did I have doubts like this before? I can't quite put together an image of what I would be satisfied with or draw the line between lust and mild affection.
I also didn't realize how STUPIDLY IDEALISTIC I WAS. Could it be, that without realizing, I've been waiting for some romanticized Prince Charming to come and sweep me off my feet? To say and do the right things constantly? To not have have flaws as I see them. Or am I setting my standards too low right now. I can't tell cuz' I've never had a healthy relationship to compare to. :/
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